Osteoarthritis

 Emotions

    You have been so focused on fulfilling others' needs that you often neglected your own. You’ve given so much of your time, energy, and resources to others that you’re now running on empty. This has left you feeling resentful towards others for taking up your time and angry with yourself for not allowing space to enjoy life.

    In your childhood, you may have felt pressured or obligated to do things that didn't align with your true desires. This may have caused you to approach activities with anger, resentment, or rigidity, leading to little to no joy in them. Influential figures in your life may have manipulated you into believing that your purpose was to serve others, projecting their insecurities and low self-worth onto you. As a result, you feel obligated to help, fix, and serve others, as though no other option existed for you during childhood.

    This has led you to associate serving others with feelings of being trapped, angry, and resentful. You worry that you’ll never have the chance to focus on your own goals. You want to express how you feel, but were often made to feel guilty or ashamed for doing so. This internal conflict has left you feeling controlled and trapped by others' needs.

    Over time, you’ve developed resistance, rigidity, and inflexibility in your relationships as a way of protecting yourself. This is where you’ve drawn your power, enabling you to endure many hardships. As a result, you’ve disconnected from your emotions, keeping them tightly controlled at all costs.

Key Points :

• What if you allowed yourself to express anger, disappointment, or resentment? Consider if the fear of abandonment is holding you back.
• Trauma linked to feelings of powerlessness: Why do you feel this way? Who contributed to these feelings? Consider exploring other possible causes.
• Putting others' needs before your own: What do you gain by prioritizing others over yourself? When did this behavior begin, and why? How did it make you feel?
• Feelings of anger and bitterness: It seems you feel frustrated and resentful, as if you are always at a disadvantage. What is preventing you from making a change? Reflect on potential self-sabotage, and consider whether you subconsciously believe you don't deserve good things.
• Believing you deserve punishment: Why do you feel this way? Who or what circumstances made you believe you should be blamed for someone else's shortcomings or mistakes?
• Forced or manipulated in childhood: Reflect on who made you do things you didn't want to during your childhood. How did this make you feel?
• Feeling controlled: Explore the fear related to setting boundaries and standing up for yourself. What were the consequences when you did speak up?
• Repetitive actions and patterns: Consider actions you feel compelled to repeat throughout your life that bring no joy. How does it make you feel when you do this? Explore other possibilities.
• Onset of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD): When did OCD start for you? Did a specific job, task, sport, or activity at home contribute to this? How did it feel when you had to use that part of your body? Explore these possibilities further.
• Anger, resentment, and bitterness: What purpose do these emotions serve? What benefits do you gain from holding onto them? Do these emotions make it easier for you to express boundaries when you're upset? They may stem from childhood experiences of giving continuously without receiving, leaving you with unprocessed feelings of anger and deprivation.
• Associating needs with lack: You may have developed an association that having needs leads to scarcity. Who made you feel this way?
• Joint pain triggers: When your joints flare up, consider what you were doing, feeling, or thinking at the time. Explore the emotional triggers behind it.
• Trauma from over-giving: Reflect on times when you gave too much. How did it make you feel?
• Childhood relationship issues: Explore challenges you had with influential figures during childhood and how these affected your adult life. Consider the secondary benefits that resulted from past habits, patterns, and trauma.
• Secondary pain: If there is additional pain, focus on addressing the Osteoarthritis first before moving on to muscle pain.