Malaria

 Emotions

    Malaria, being caused by a parasite, prompts the question, "Who or what in your life is draining your energy?" Often, people attract parasitic relationships or circumstances that take advantage of them.

 

   Having a weak immune system makes you more vulnerable to these "parasites," which might also symbolize unclear boundaries with those around you. This reflects a lack of protection from harmful influences in your environment.
     You may have allowed yourself to be verbally or physically attacked because you fear setting boundaries. You worry that by doing so, you might be rejected, abandoned, or punished. This insecurity might stem from feeling unsure of your place within your family or social circle. Perhaps something or someone has disrupted the flow of love from a parent or loved one, leading you to believe that you must hold everything together on your own.
     You may feel that others don’t respect the choices you've made. Often, you conform to someone else's rules, suppressing your own goals and freedom. This may leave you feeling trapped, overprotected, or controlled. Whenever you've sought freedom, it may have been met with feelings of being controlled, suffocated, or trapped.
     Decisions may have frequently been made for you, leading to a belief that you lack the strength to act independently. As an adult, you might feel overwhelmed by responsibilities that were once managed for you. With less support as you mature, you might feel uncertain and confused, never knowing what the next step should be.

    This has left you feeling uncertain and confused, unsure of what the next step should be.

You may have experienced a sudden change in your role within your family or job, which is still causing you significant stress. These unexpected circumstances may have forced you to take on responsibilities that others previously handled. The abrupt changes left you feeling overwhelmed, out of control, and possibly paralyzed by fear. You're very self-critical and strive for success as an independent person, but you feel lost without the support and guidance you had during your childhood.

Key Points : 

• Explore any trauma that may have left you feeling violated or overwhelmed by unexpected changes or circumstances. Did your mother have a planned pregnancy? How did the sperm and egg feel about the pregnancy? Did the news of the pregnancy bring a sense of invasion, entrapment, or control?
• Reflect on patterns where influential individuals reacted defensively to your personal growth. How did their actions make you feel? Did they attempt to disempower you?
• Consider how growing up in a dysfunctional or unstable environment has impacted your ability to create a more suitable atmosphere for yourself. Did you feel empowered to make changes, or were you left feeling trapped?
• Address feelings of worthlessness, lack of respect, love, or protection. Who made you feel this way, and why? Explore further possibilities.
• Identify who or what may be holding you down. Do you feel a need for more emotional and mental freedom? What is restricting you? Explore these possibilities.
• Fear of being overpowered or attacked for standing up for yourself or expressing anger can be strong. How does holding in your anger help keep you safe? Explore further.
• Did recent changes challenge your ability to emotionally and mentally cope? Explore further.
• Always revisit birth trauma by consulting the Birth section for more exploration.